Hey everyone! Well I know none of you have really worried of whats been going on with me lately. Nothing inparticular really, except that Im getting a Divorce from Ryan (as I feard the most) and im back here in hawaii for a good while. Life has been so busy lately and I apologize to those who feel I have avoided them. I finally have a Job thou! Im a official Lifeguard over on Pearl Harbor, its the koolest job ever. I love my job! it creeps me out saying that becuz I never thought that I would ever say that about a job. Other then me working Im still living at home with my family foir now. I am planning on moving out soon thou becuz I feel like Im a burden or something on them and besides Im never home and I tend to go crazy sometimes staying home since my family is crazy like that. I'll be moving to Mililani at the beginning and then after my roomate gets his orders he is going to get a place in Waipahu where I'll be living with 3 GUYS!!! all in the military and my friends son will be there for a few months too.  Other then that my life is doing good and im living life that I want. Well, i guess that it for now i guess ill talk to you all later buh bai. love yaz  

Hidy Ho!

Well as I was checking my email and eating Chef Boyordee Spagetti and meatballs, I realized I havent had a entry for the longest time. So here I am typing another entry. How have I been? Ive been good and all Im going to a Life Guard Certification Class which is 50 bucks and thanx to my parents they are paying for it. Im pretty happy that Im taking this certifcation becuz first it helps me get a job and second its a great job and Ive always wanted to be a Life Guard so its awsome last night was my first night and oh my god I got my ass whiped I had to do 500 yards of swimming and it hurt so much but i felt good thou and I passed which is what matters. So Ill be in this class for 4 weeks and hopefully I will pass and concour this and get a job and get my life set up. Things with me and Ryan we are juss friends now if anything good friends and I will always love and be thankful for all the things hes done for me and his family as well.  

  Lately I have taken up Smoking again (I know its bad) and im actually gonna cut back during this certification, Im Drinking but not heavily like to the point of A meetings but Im doing good thou Im starting to get in touch with who I am and I might be moving to Texas and ill be near University of Texas but thats like a year away and what not so yea im slowly trying to get things together the best way as possible.

So thats really the lastest I will try and keep up to date as much as possible. I love you all and thanx for stoping by.

HOLLA!

Well its been awhile since ive updated, Mostly becuz Ive been busy. Monday I got back from Ryan's cousin's wedding out in Kentucky Which was a great time. The wedding was so pretty they had Scottish wedding !! the guys in kilts and bagg pipes the works. It was so beautiful! We all got trashed at the reception..good times. Anyway, I fly out on Sunday for My visit out to hawaii. Yay! I get to see some of you and tell you all about Virginia.  Im not sure how long im gonna be out there for but before I leave ill let you know. Me and ryan are going throu so much right now that Im scared of what will happen to us. We are goign to be apart and going to find ourselves and see where we stand and it scares me becuz Ryan is one of the best things in my life and I dont want to loose that. So yeah I love him very much and he loves me as well. In the end everything will work out for the best im juss mostly scared of where he sees us standing.

Anyway im off for now I cant wait to see you all and give me a call on my cell if you dont have the number FIND A WAY TO GET IT!!  k bye all

Have A Happy Day

  Well this week is going slow it seems. Ryan is off on a trip for his job and Im here bymyself which isnt too bad my neighbor has been helping so Im greatful for that coz I think I would have gone crazy. Ive been good lately been kinda out of it lately. And for those of you who dont know, Im coming tback home for a visit courtesy of ryan's parents. So yeah SURPRISE!! Ill be flying out on the 27th of june and thats all I know for now.

      If you want to more call me up and ill tell you. Im thinking ill be ther for 2 or 3 weeks. My reason for coming is well I of course miss home, But I didnt really get a chance to say goodbye and have closeure on me leaving home so this will help me with that and I also have so stuff to take care of that ryan and I havent been able to ddo due to the fact that we were here. Another reason is becuz Ryan and I have been having problems and we thought we would take a break and I could also find out who I really am and what  I want in life. Dont worry the "D" word isnt in the picture. But lately, I havent been able to see who I really am and What I want. So Ryan and Ryan's parents thought it would be good for me to go back home which is a familuar inviorment and see my friends and family so I could see what I like and all that stuff. you get what im saysing right? ok then.  Ryan and I are doing better and we are trying to work things out and mend things and I think that its going good and its almost like we are learning more about eachother still yet. 

   Anyway moving on, I almost had a Job but becuz im coming home I wouldnt able to take it becuz its only open till August. So when i come back Im gonna bust my ass and try and get a job becuz we really need it, for the money. I also got a new washer and dryer!! for only 50 bucks! Omg I was so happy. Now I can do my own laundry without asking to barrow neighbors washers and dryers. hehe  anyway I hope you guys are all well but I must be on my way now I will see ya'll later. miss ya and love you all

And for those that visited my site thamx for coming by

Aloha and im coming home soon.

~I Would Like To Thank You, Dont Stank You!!!~

  Anyway, now that thats out of my system, Im over at Ryan's paretns place for memorial weekend. YAY! The hell week Is almost over! Anyway Im going to be going to 6 flags today I cant wait, but i have no choice becuz im the only one awake out of the 3 (ryan, Kyle and me) But its understandable of course grated ryan had off tomarrow thou so hes juss catching up on his sleep he has missed lately. poor ting. Anyway I saw the movie 'Day After Tomarrow' OMG, it was so Intense! I wanted to cry on one part but I was ok I wanted to cry becuz it seemd so damn real! So I oviously recomend that movie.  Then on Sunday after we go to Washington DC do see the new world war II memorial dedication we are going to walk around DC and then we are going to go see Sherek 2 .

   Good News, I also Got a washer and Dryer for basically 50 bucks!! the washer was free and the dryer was 50 bucks, I have the washer already and on tuesday I gotta go back to the guys house and pick up the dryer and pay him the money so Im totally happy that I have my own washer and dryer! woohooo!*does happy dance. My next thing to maybe save upfor is this plastic patio set (table and chairs) for like 60 bucks! thats pretty good. But I might not be able to get it becuz by the time i have the money to spend for it it will more likely be gone. Oh well.

  Ok people the guys are starting to wake up so I will see you all laters

LOVE YOU ALL AND I STILL MISSIN THE 808 STATE